Diary of an Ascending Addict

The message came loud and clear today, right after I woke up.

I woke up crying, feeling the grief and loss of IO and Pablo more than ever.

But then a few minutes later came the download.

You have arrived.

It took a moment to sink in, but once it did, I felt inner peace. I went from raw grief to the most beautiful inner peace in a matter of minutes.

That’s how the divine shows you the truth and it is unmistakable.

No external proof needed, just these inner miracles.

Happening over and over again, backed by impossible synchronicities that only you can see and that are undeniable. You really are never alone.

The confirmations are only for you, only you can receive them in the context of your own unique journey. They’re not meant for the external world, they don’t need external validation.

It’s an inner knowing, unshakable, getting more powerful, more tangible by the day.

So where have I arrived? In the quantum field, my new reality, where everything is possible.

I could be telling you about all the events, all the signs, all the healing and downloads that have amounted to this knowing. But I’m not trying to convince you, I’m just sharing.

Not many people are reading my blog anyway and it’s kind of reassuring in a sense.

I created it to document my awakening, and that’s what I’m doing.

You have arrived doesn’t mean the sadness is gone, it is very much here, but the inner peace of that inner knowing, I’ve never felt before.

It takes a while to integrate that type of shift.

But since IO died, and the dust of the Tower crashing down has begun to settle, it’s been happening every day.

This Fleetwood Mac song keeps looping in my mind:

Sweet, wonderful you
You make me happy with the things you do
Oh, can it be so?
This feeling follows me wherever I go

I never did believe in miracles
But I’ve a feeling it’s time to try
I never did believe in the ways of magic
But I’m beginning to wonder why