Diary of an Ascending Addict

If you know Tarot, you know the Tower Card. Lightning striking a tower, representing your life. I knew the meaning of this card, to a certain extent but not the full, final and irreversible extent.

IO, my beautiful dog, died September 16th. The divine timing, circumstances, and abruptness of her death came as a lightning strike.

My Beloved IO

The most cherished being ever.

An angel, a light, a sweet mischievous child.

You’re gone, leaving me behind.

Just like Pablo, before you but we still had each other.

Pablo broke my heart open and you left it in tatters, never to be put back together again. Not the same one anyway.

I woke up suddenly last night and saw you right there beside my bed,

It was you. You visited me. And just how beautiful is that?

But that’s you, the most wonderful magical soul.

I was so lucky to have you in my life.

I won’t do you the dishonor to go into guilt, although it’s lurking around. You wouldn’t have it, it’s just not your frequency.

I don’t know how to pick up these broken bits again.

But I know you’ll help me.

I honor you my love, I honor your life and your eternal presence with us all.

Everyone in our family loves you to bits.

I miss you.

I miss your scratching at my door, only to run and hide behind the couch.

I miss your little sighs of contentment or boredom.

Your absence is louder than your silence.

The house is empty without the patter of your little nails on the tiles,

I look for you everywhere, in your usual spots.

We had it good. But it wasn’t merely enough.